MUSICIAN. ARTIST. GARDENER.
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JOURNAL

MICHAEL MUSIKA'S CHRONOLOGICAL DOCUMENTATION OF CREATION THROUGH WRITING, PHOTOGRAPHY, AND PERFORMANCE ON VIDEO.

JOURNAL

This Journal is for a Japanese documentary film maker so that we may have an opportunity to go to Japan.


 
FEB 20, 2020 // I DREAMED I WAS A VERY CLEAN TRAMP, RICHARD HELL

SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA

Richard Hell grew up in Kentucky and ran away from home for the first time as a young boy shortly before his father died of a heart attack. I think it was a heart attack. I’m writing this a few months after I finished the book. Richard starts out remembering his childhood with remarkable detail. He notes the smell of the building where his father worked, the trees that grew around there, his report card grades, and times spent with friends listening to records, and looking for trouble.

I used to find it remarkable when a popular music professional with heavy drug habits has a good memory, and an eye for details that better writers may pass over. Keith Richards, in his autobiography, references journal entries that also served as accounting log books for the earnings and expenses of The Rolling Stones’ early shows. I realize now that this shouldn’t be surprising at all that these sorts of people have good memories. Those who have struck a key in the cultural consciousness loud enough for little old me to hear must have had an above average set of faculties. I know more about baseball than I do about music. That is to say, I’m not studiously in search of the esoteric. What comes my way I catch, but I don’t go out of my way. I’ve been around a little bit though, and I’m quite sure it’s difficult to move to New York City as an eighteen year old, and through the tutelage and selectively good graces of a series of savvy girlfriends, low rent living situations, and dubious patrons, learn to make a living.

The book ends with Richard walking around his neighborhood in New York as a middle aged, sober, retired artist. Before that he did lots of drugs, played in the band Television in the CBGB punk scene, played in a band with Johnny Thunders after the New York Dolls, published poetry periodicals, and was somewhat rude to Allen Ginsberg. My favorite passage was when he compared the George Bush World Trade Center, flag waving supporters after the September 11, 2001 attacks, to the attendees of a March 1967, Central Park “Human Be-in.” I have it underlined in pencil. That’s the first time I remember doing that. I’m making progress in my student habits. The passage goes: “For Bush’s Americans that dubious idea was the virtue of self-righteous patriotism, and for the hippies it was the practicability of universal kindness and generosity. The people joined together by those unexamined assumptions seemed idiotic. On the other hand, my inability to fit in was involuntary too.”

Yeah. I feel that way, and it’s probably why I usually don’t like parties. Richard Hell certainly made a lot of music and artwork. He says that he designed the aesthetic of his bands. By this I mean the clothes, haircuts, and artwork of the flyers. He understood how marketing and image related to understanding the art itself. One must see the utility in being. Even being a junky has utility. Pretty little things like birds with broken wings, and so do wealthy would be uncles, but you have to have the fortitude to sleep with one eye open, for like twenty years or so. This book, like the previous one in this list, was a birthday present from my friend Sterling in May of 2018.

((MORE BOOK REVIEWS))

Michael Musika
NOV 20, 2019 // ISIS GIRL

SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA

Sometime a couple summers ago I was in line at a coffee store, and this girl in front of me said to her friend, “Oh my God if they get my order wrong again, I’m going to literally join Isis.”  And I thought to myself, I never understood before why anyone would want to join Isis, but now I want to join Isis. 

DITLOSMichael Musika
NOV 19, 2019 // ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS

SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA

When I was a kid I was in history class and this kid made an anti-Semitic remark, and the teacher said “That’s wrong, do you guys know why?”  and I raised my hand and said “Well, you’re a history teacher, you mean he should have directed his acrimony towards the Romans?” If you’re asking me, I think the Jews, the Christians, the Muslims, they’re all being duped, and having their God replaced by a corrupt government.  I think that joke might work better if it takes place in an Alcoholics Anonymous class.  

Michael Musika
NOV 18, 2019 // DEATH

SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA

If I stop talking and it all turns to black, it is the cure all we are seeking: Death. But beyond death lies another frontier, wherein, according to our culture, we will be faced with the same dilemma we were scared to face in the first place.

Michael Musika
TUES SEPT 24, 2019 // NOVELISTS DIED TRYING

SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA

Today everybody’s trying to say something clever, and then it almost immediately expires.  Everything is more ephemeral.  In the old days, if you wanted to say something clever, you had to write a novel, or die trying. Most novelists died trying. 

Michael Musika